red&black♥

I always get stumped on the whole aspect of telling people about yourself, and about who you are, because there's just so much to tell. I mean am I supposed to tell my life story, or my dreams, or what I like or dislike? I'm not sure what the right answer is, but I'm basically going to give a little "snapshot" or "summary" of who I am, and my life, because I know that my "Must be a Leo thing" post was about me, but it did not completely go into detail. And I'd like to add in that I know that that post was long and kind of all over the place, but I can't be sorry and am not because it came straight from the heart, and it is a reflection of who I am and my life; so I hope you enjoyed it!

I mentioned in an earlier post that my life isn't that of a typical and ordinary person, (or teenager, at this point) and I still stick to that assumption.

I am.. Albanian, a war child, an army daughter, a Hero's daughter, a soldier's daughter, a student in life, an aspiring lawyer, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, mentor, shoulder to lean and cry on, lover, and the list goes on. I was born in Kosova, (with an "A" not an "O") a small, beautiful and amazing country in Europe. So, I am Albanian. I emigrated to Canada with my family when  I was 3 years old, so I am Canadian now as well. I love Canada, not more than I love Kosova, obviously, but  I do love it for various reasons. I guess this is the part where I explain why my family and I emigrated to Canada. The reason being that there was a war in my homeland of Kosova, in 1998 with Serbia. (I'd like to mention that Serbia initiated this war, not Kosova, and for anyone that decides to disagree with me on that, good luck!) I came to Canada in 1999 and have lived here ever since. Although I do go back and visit Kosova every now and then with my family. I actually visited Kosova this past summer of 2012, from June 11th until August 20th. People say that there's always that summer that changes everything, well this past summer of 2012 in Kosova was that summer for me. The Kosova war is more than just a "war" for me, and essentially for my family.So I will be speaking about the Kosova war in a separate post, as I feel it deserves its own post. But just keep in mind that it is very important to me, and has essentially shaped and formed my life and who  I am today, and who I choose to be now and in the future.

I am currently a grade 12 student, who is super excited and ecstatic for University. School for me is one of the most important things in life. I can honestly say that I am in love with school, therefore I do take school and education very seriously. Not just because an education will get you somewhere but for other reasons as well, which I will go into greater detail in other posts. I hope to become a lawyer in the future, criminal lawyer to be exact. I have plans to study Criminology in University for 4 years, but am now considering studying Political Science as well. After University, I hope to pass the LSAT's and get accepted into Law School. After I graduate Law School,  I hope to pass the Bar Exam and get my license to become an Attorney/Lawyer. So I'm super excited, nervous, and can't wait all at the same time.

... I have 3 brothers, 2 sisters, 2 brother-in-laws, 1 sister-in-law. I also have 1 niece, 2 nephews, and another nephew on the way, whom I can't wait for! ( I have already decided that he is going to grow up into some "big deal"). I'd like to add in that this is nothing, you're lucky I'm not mentioning all my family in Kosova, because that will turn into a very, very long list! And no, it's not a "Leo thing", but rather and "Albanian thing".

For those of you that want to know what kind of person I am, here it goes: I am an outgoing and happy person. I always smile, and I don't even notice it until someone mentions it. But I like it, I like being a happy and positive person, and I love making other people smile, because I feel that one smile can really change someone's entire day and/or life. I am very family-oriented, again, I think that is due to my Albanian roots. I love spending time with my family, and just being together. But on the other hand, I enjoy having time to myself and doing things on my own and independently, so I like a balance in both. I am a very determined person and the type of person that if you tell me that I can't do something, I will be and am prone to prove you incredibly wrong. By this I mean that I WILL try and work my hardest to prove you wrong, which will eventually happen. I really and strongly believe that those who don't believe in me keep me going in a way, and make me try even harder and not give up. So  I thank each and every one of you who decide to doubt me, really, it's a pleasure proving you wrong. I don't want people getting the wrong impression of me and thinking that I am selfish and only care about myself and proving people wrong. I just don't like people telling other people that they can't do something, and crushing their hopes and dreams. I am very big on and obsessed with dreams. I think that having dreams is courageous and amazing. It takes a lot to have a dream, and work at it and try to and eventually pursue it. So that's why I get defensive when people put down my dreams and my goals that I have put in place for myself. I don't take life for granted because  I know what it's like to almost have your life taken away from you. I think that everyone should live life to the fullest and not worry about what others think. For this reason, I dislike with a passion those who decide to waste, and drink and smoke their life away. I think it's a tragedy for someone to take advantage of life and their chance at life so easily. I am not a fan of partying and going out and drinking and things of that sort. That is why I don't necessarily like those kinds of people, and why I don't surround myself with those kinds of people. It annoys and bothers me seeing people so focused on drinking and having boyfriends/girlfriends every week and saying "I love you" to everyone of them and say "forever and always." Yah, no. You do not love him/her and you are not going to be together forever and always, because that would entail you actually feeling those feelings. I have a lot to say about those kinds of people, which I have a feeling will come up in future posts, so don't worry, I will talk more about that.

Overall, I love living and life. Oh, and I'm also in love with being Albanian. I have a huge and enormous pride in being part of the Albanian race. But I will go into that deeper in posts down the road, because I do plan to post news, pictures, videos, etc. about Kosova/Albania(ns). For my readers who are Albanian, I do speak Albanian fluently, and am 100% Albanian all the way. Those who are Albanian would know what I mean by "red and black heart". I am one of those Albanians that you hear about who have complete and utter pride in their race, country and nationality. So if you have any questions about Kosova or Albanians, or if you are Albanian, we are going to get along just fine! (Kuq e zi gjithmone) And if you are Albanian, stay tuned because I will be posting ALOT about Kosova, Albanians and everything else associated with being lucky enough to be Albanian.

I hope you have somewhat of an understanding of the type of person I am. I don't expect you to understand fully who I am through one post, so I hope you stay tuned and continue to come back to my blog. I am just getting started, and I guarantee you that it will only get better from here, so hang in there and stick with me.