Inshallah.

Recently, I have been interested in learning more about Islam and what being a Muslim really means.
Although I was born into Islam and am a Muslim, I am working on becoming a better Muslim. Because I currently do not pray five times a day, and don't even know everything about the religion and the revelations; or what the religion really believes in.
I have reached a stage in my life where I have decided to and am on the journey to find the truth and I hope Allah helps me inshallah, and guides me to the truth.
I am really excited and learn more and more each day, which adds to the interest and enthusiasm I have for the religion of Islam and becoming a practicing Muslim.
It may take years until I reach that stage, inshallah, of being a devout Muslim. But this is also a time and journey where I do some "soul-searching" to figure out if Islam is the religion for me. I have learned about Catholicism seeing that I have gone to Catholic schools all my life. I have also in the process learned about other religions and have denied them. Islam is the one religion that maybe because I was born into it, I have a  love and enthusiasm for. I have always believed that there is a God who created us, and that after we die we will be reunited inshallah, with our loved ones. I just never looked deeper than that and actually chose to practice a religion. I don't regret it though, I think the truth comes with time. I think the older that you are is in a way better because you do learn more as you yourself grow and learn more about yourself at the same time.
I hope that I find the answers that I anticipate I will find, and hopefully it will be worthwhile and rewarding journey.  I am not promising myself anything though, I am the type of person that hasn't really believed all the stories about those before us. Such as in Catholicism, how Jesus died on the cross, and Moses turned water into blood. I am not one of those people that believe in those type of stories. I found them truthfully, with no offense intended to anyone, that they were just made up and that they were simply ridiculous. My response to hearing the stories, in my head would always be "yah, I remember when I could turn water into blood too; good times." I guess I'm that type of person.  And  I know that Islam too, has its own stories that are going to need my belief and thorough dedication to belief in them. I am hoping and anticipating I guess that if Islam really is the religion for me, that the stories from long ago won't be hard to believe because they just are; and everything will fall into place.

I have watched videos, and I have to say I have always thought that the few Arabic words or phrases that I have previously heard Muslims say or learnt about, or my very own family says and Arabic words that Albanians say are beautiful. I watched videos from a blog/channel on youtube named "Nye Armstrong" and I bumped into a video that talks about Basic Arabic Phrases and I knew some of them already; but it was good to get further explanation and meaning on them. Today  I learned simple phrases and I love just saying them, I feel that they are so beautiful and I can't stop saying them. Phrases or words such as "Mashallah, or Inshallah, etc" They have something about them that make you want to say them over and over again. I think there's something more to that kind of beauty. That one word or phrase can feel so heavenly just by saying it, and can make you feel so good and at awe. I think that's amazing, Mashallah.

I look forward to the journey ahead of me, as long as it may take. Even if I may take breaks or take time off to stop doing my "soul-searching" I know that when the time is right the truth will come to me, or I will find the truth that fits just right.